Yesterday was good. I'm getting my homework done now..no distractions. After school, i had a meeting..buut..i didnt go. It wasnt really a meeting i think? I hate this computer. I'm typing and I can't see what I'm typing until about five seconds after i type it. sucks so much. After school, i was with ana, eric, and calvin. calvin wanted to show us his um..tissue box? hahaha. when we went to the parking lot, corrine, henry, lisa, and justin were there. eric and ana left..calvin and i stuck around with them. and then lisa and i got hungry and went to lunch at in-n-out. cuute guys there! one of them was wearing a st.francis basketball sweatshirt. but i knew they werent juniors. so im all: hey do you guys go to st.francis? and the guys' like: yuup! st.francis!  and im like: what year are you? and he's like: "oh we're all sophomores." my interest went down to zero haha.

lisa and i talked..about stuff..and then i went home with ana and joe. got home..and i was soo tired. my aunt and andrea and nanay rented some filipino tapes and they wanted me to watch with them. Title? "Forever My Love" Ew?? i was like: uh..sappy filipino movie? i think I'll pass. so i took a nap. or..was GONNA take a nap..but then Long called. and we talked for a pretty long time. it's been a while since we did. we kept getting d/c but he'd call back so that was good. we talked about..stuff. it's between  the two of us. haha "even the molecular bonds?" haha..it's educational. so gay. haha. and then we hung up and i thought: okay i can fall asleep! buut then..calvin called and woke me up. "dianne!" "mrhmmhmph?" hahahaha. he just saw a movie. haha. OK?? hahaha.

after that..i went online and talked to ppl..and i think i was looking at sephora too, very excited KRIS! i cant wait to go crazy at that store! thanks for the gift! thanks a BUNCH! hahaha.

today..i woke up around lunchtime. we were watching a filipino movie again. oh hahahah Forever My Love turned out to be a scary movie..actually. Like a sixth sense kind of thing. i thought it was the funniest thing. serves them right for picking such a sappy movie. hahaha. but this morning, we watched the other rented tape, which is a comedy. i watched it with nanay while waiting for mom to finish getting ready..which took 2 and a half hours. So finally she was done..we went to that salon that lexa told me to go to..and the place ive been going to since like..late last year. the ppl there know me now. i always have the same lady and she knows me she's like: "yes i know what you like" which is pretty cool. I liked how she completed my sentences. My hair was big and poofy..and..very ugh..hahaha. i said to her: "umm..my hair is kinda..big and poofy? Canyou---" "Thin it?" she asked, nodding. I'm like: "you can Do that?!" and she's like: "Yea." andi was like: "can you also--" "Layer it?" she asked. "Yes!" i said. Super perfect! It was crazy how she was thinning my hair with the straight razor dude. There was soo much hair on the floor. She said what she said to me the first time we met, "You have a LOT of hair." hahahaha. She spent a lot of time on the back. and then she thinned the sides and stuff. it doesnt look..different..but i think it looks less big. it's LIGHTER..that's for sure. i wish it could stay this thin forever..but my mom says when it grows, it'll be thick again. eww..

i was like: "hmm..it doesnt look that different." and as i said it, i pulled all of my hair back cuz i wanted to put it in a ponytail and i was like: "uh...where's all my hair?" and when i put it up, it didnt POOF. i was kinda happy with it. it's never been that thin before. i was like: woaa..i wish it woudl stay that way. church tomorrow..and movies for calvin's bday! happy bday calvin!  

hmm..today was calvin's bday. ill start by talking about yesterday, though. haha im a day behind. what happened yesterday..i dont even remember. school was fun, as always. and then i went home. ana and joe went with me. i dont remember what we talked about..i just remember laffing a lot. hahaha yesterday, i was trying to tell eric and calvin and ana about how joe talked about fake people living in the freeway islands..but they started laffing before i even got to the punchline haha. 

 OH. and last night i was thinking..annd..got kinda sad, kinda mad, kinda everything. hahaha. and i was freaking out online..so  then jon said i could call him and scream. so i did. i got calmed down. we talked for..how long? i thought it was pretty long. anyyyways..it was kinda late by the time we were done, so i fell asleep quickly. ana called and woke me out of a deep sleep..buut its okay haha. then i fell quickly back to sleep again.

now today. today was CALVIN'S BDAY!! ppl got him cake and cards and presents. but i gave him a hug. hahahaa. try to wrap THAT ONE! i already bought you a whole cow ok? we ate his cake during lunch..he says i killed it..and i am sorry. i dont think i did. i think i just..hurt it a little bit. nadine got icing on his nose..from my fork. ewwwww. i wiped them off. calvin's nose AND my fork. groossss haha.

 after school yesterday, me and calvin and alexa went to mary's car so alexa can give me my x-mas present. this morning she gave me my bday present. hahaha so funny. Calvin: "whatd you get her?" Alexa: [whispers] Calvin: [looks at me] "hahahaha. she NEEDS it." you're meann..hahaha. it defrizzed my hair though, i hope hahaha. after we got our presents..oh kris got me a sephora gift card. OMG..she called me and told me she got it and when she showed it to me at lunch, i did this weird little jig and screamed and ran to her. hahaha

okay so..we got our presents from lexa..and i told calvin to walk me back to my locker. lexa called me a brat. hahaha yelled it and then looked surprised that i heard it! haha. calvin said he'd walk me hafway, but ended up walking me all the way. which was good..cuz..i think kris gave him a present? haha. kay today..school was fun of course. we talked about mixitup day. haha. i'll be sitting with ana and henry anyways..soo..there's kinda no diff? and even if its by DAY..i'll still be sitting w/ henry so whatver. it wont pan out. i was sposed to go home w/ ana around 4..but i was too tired so i went home at 2:30. came home and fell ASLEEP. woke up around 6:30. i deno what it is w/ me and sleep now. im just really tired in more ways than one..but im happy to say that im happy. frazzled sometimes..but..im happy about a lot of things. yup.

okay..ill start by talking about yesterday. it was pretty fun. i woke up arouuund..11'ish..thinking hard..mostly about my resolution to keep things simple and to get rid of the clutter in my life. soo..i started with my desk. i rearranged it. everything on the left went to the right..and vice versa..of course..or else everything woudl be on the right haha. did you get that joke? didnt think so. ANYWAYS..i took some decorations and stuff on my desk that didnt have meaning orrr...lost their meaning..and put em all in a pile on my other desk or my bed and took all the pens and wrote with them and the ones that werent up to snuff..i threw away. i threw away a LOT of stuff. my desk is practically bare now..im down to my almost bare essentials..things that mean something to me annd...you know..pens and stuff haha.

then i sorted through the things that i had wanted to put in permanent storage..or  loooooong time storage. annd..as i was looking through things..i saw a lot of stuff that had built up in my desk..movie tickets..jewelry..certain people's watches and souvenirs..couldnt help but feel kinda sad? ooh i found this rock i got back in third grade...hahaha. memories. everything went in the box though..except for the rock. the watch first went in the trash..but i changed my mind and put it in the box. the box is still in my room, but i'll go put it away soon. mmm..and then went online and talked to ppl.

then around 4'ish? i think? i got picked up by ana and family. haha..had to squish in the car. we went to Costco. in the car ride..i filled ana in on the goings on of the past few days..we talked..laughed a lot..temporary insanity..yuppp..hahaha..we talked about...some stuff that might offend some ppl so i probably shouldnt write it in here..just about people's upbringings and mindsets and stuff. stick with your own kind? hahahaha.

At Costco..joe pushed me in the cart and we talked about paris hilton and how i wanted her new book and how disgusted joe was hahaha. then..back to ana's house where i totally ate out her kitchen. so much great stuf. i didnt eat lunch at home cuz i knew id like ana's food better. ana and i talked...and i felt better about things..plus the fact that i was getting full was also good. and then..yea..we're not sposed to eat upstairs..but i wanted candy..like always..and so i stuffed my pockets with their candy [its out there for everyone to sEE!] and walked upstairs..trying to be nonchalant and causal about the whole thing. OOoohh nonchalant..big word. haha.

anyways..we were upstairs and ana was fixing the portable dvd player..trying to hook it up to the tv..or whatever..so we coudl watch Oceans Eleven. Joe's on thecomp and he's like: "i'm hungry and i dont wanna go downstairs. dianne lemme see your pockets." HAHAHAHA. And then..it was ana's mom's bday..so we went tooooo..Sushi O Sushi over at Santa Clara. ive never really had japanese food before..well..okay i guess benihana..but i dont get it often. im starting to like it now! the chopsticks sucked so much. ana's mom and ana kept saying: are you sure you dont want a fork? and im like: Grr im fine. i can do thiss!!!

there's soomething about ppl who can use chopsticks..that make me think they're cultured you know? especially when they're not japanese. unfortunately, i'm not one of those ppl. ooh and mochi! that was super good omg?? it was like ice cream and candy put together!! love..and LOVE..super awesome. thats my new favorite dessert. okay..fave FOREIGN dessert. Ummm..okay and then they dropped me off at the house around 9:30..i cleaned up cuz for some reason my mind can't handle clutter anymore. stayed up..watched Simpsons..had a little bit of family time..read magazine..went to sleep. mm..today was fun. back at school. i like school. i actually LIKE school. i missed it..i missed being able to yell and scream at lunch.

im back in my own little world..with ppl like me. they say when you're like that..when you're only with ppl like you..there's no chance to grow and change..and i believe that..but after you see what's out there..it makes you thankful to be with ppl like you.

i dont feel like writing about what's been going on. christmas was fun..new years was..interesting..i deno. most of you know what's been going on anyways. calvin..turn ON your phone! hahaha. i was just sitting here..watching the same movie jon is..

pigking2020: this movie does blow, the main chick is not even hot

hahaha but like he said..the movie blows. and talking to steven..and that's always fun. oh yea i saw him at the mall the other day. first time ive seen him in suuch a long time...i jumped on him and when he let go, my neck hurt. mustve twisted it the wrong way..but i didnt say anything cuz i was too happy to see him.

i was just..yea..thinking..and i realized i liked the goo goo dolls! which is..weird. cuz imt hinking about these songs that i liked..and i realized they were by the same group and im like: woa..i liked them..without..knowing i liked them. nice. hahaha.

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
And you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

ooh..christmas colors. hahaha. i like that song. im taking my ipod to ana's house tomorrow to see if they know how to work it..cuuz..my comp is too slow for it to work. i was in the car..and..hahaha i like how i think when im starting to fall asleep..but i go in and out of the sleepness. i deno if you know what i mean. probly not. but i think of the weeirdest things and its funny cuz i forget what im thinking about..so i get mad..buut..ahh its so hard to explain..but its real. im thnking aboutsomething and i just..forget all of a sudden..but i know i was thinking about something. like a half dream, i guess? today..i actually remembered that i was analyzing the word "restless" for..God knows how long.

i asked steven his new years resolutions..i dont wanna repeat them here. hahahhaa. my resolutions..i wanna keep my life simple. simpler. i get frazzled very easily and i havent had peace of mind for a really long time. i like messy..but..i need some stability. im emotionally drained. i got messed up..around..september..that stayed till mid october. for about two weeks in october, i had simplicity. i was pretty happy...thennn..the mess came back. but now its gone and i give myself till mid january till i can get some peace of mind again. i was thinking..its funny how im doing something but i'm not there..im talking to someone..or nodding my head as if im listening..but im not there..and after i leave them, i dont remember anything about the convo. i just remember what i was thinking at the time. one of my thoughts was..actually how lucky i am. i like my life. i like my friends. i like how..certain people can walk in and out of my life so quickly..and sometimes leave a mess..or leave it better..but either way..the same people are there..and im lucky i have that.

"taking chances is part of growing" that horrible movie im watching haha..just said that. ...that's good..but im not ready to do that. i remember being numb for a while. had a wall around me. it went down though..and im kinda glad about that. the scariest feeling ive ever had must be numbness. its so scary. hmm..this blog is getting long and sad. so ill stop now. hahaha. its a new year..im gonna try to keep things simple..except my shopping and spending [ i cant change THAT much]. i wont get attached or anything like that. they say..suffering starts with desire. you want something..you dont get it..you're sad. hmm..i wanna stop writing now. geez..this  was a sad entry. at least..i thought it was.. what a downer. hahaha.

so i was looking at calvin's pictures of ana's partyy..and i saw 8th grade pictures. omg guys! stroll down memory lane!

eww my TEETH. ew. it's my best friend shirley! on the left..on the couch..little chantal, ash, and jack. im the one winking. that was janelle's party..i remember..and that dodger's jacket was steven's? or jack's? i dont remember..steven's i think..

awww look at the group..have we ALL ever been in the same room since graduation??..haha we look SO YOUNG. alex is the one eating the plastic lei.

RELIGION CLASS! you cant see me..but you can see my back. see the guy on the far right turning to face the camera? STEVEN! haha. im the one next to him. wow such good kids..raising hands..listening to Mr.B..wow..a lot has changed hahaha.

i like this picture cuz my face is covered. haha. calvin you look so young in this one! from left..jack..[top]calvin..me..ash..chantal. it was hawaiian themed..but i remember we were all super cold.

the good old days..back at st.johns.